Friday, October 11, 2013

Blessing in Disguise

          My life has seemed to be filled with hardships that felt like the worst thing and then wound up being something that made me stronger once I have gotten through it.  I've been through things that felt impossible to get through, but I got through them somehow, and learned things I couldn't have possibly learned had I not been through those experiences.  The most powerful educational experiences I have had in my life have been these types of experiences, and I wouldn't trade them for anything in the world.  These are what a lot of people call "a blessing in disguise".  They are the most beautiful things, in a distorted, backwards type of way.  The most notable experience that I've had was when I went to treatment for my drug and alcohol abuse for 20 months.
          When I first went to treatment for my drug and alcohol abuse, I faced the largest internal conflict I have ever had to deal with.  I felt so much pain - from the guilt I felt of hurting others, to the anger of my situation.  I hated where I was.  I wanted to be free and go about doing what I was doing.  I was depressed, resentful, sad, confused, and ultimately miserable.  It was the most challenging experience of my life.
           As time went on, my perspective was able to change.  I was able to realize how beneficial the experience was for me.  Not only was I able to get clean and sober, but I was about to learn and find out things about myself that I could have not learned had I not been through this.  I came to the realization that all the pain and hardship that I had been through was ultimately the best thing for me, and something that made my life ever more fruitful and whole.  This is the main experience I have had that has been a blessing in disguise.


A mysterious science,
Been practiced for millennia.
Its traditions and origin are deeply enriched in all culture.
Often mistaken as dealing only with metal,
But it goes far beyond.
It inspires culture,
It inspires self-knowledge.
It inspires our creative minds,
It inspires our inner selves.
It gets easily mistaken,
As something that it is not.
It is something that truly interests me,
Something that I want to be educated more on.





1 comment:

  1. Good post.

    I'm glad that you went back and did it. You have a great story to your life. Your posts, though, are not doing it justice yet. You write very well, but you need to write more.

    Try to take it to the next level. It seems, from the length and the depth of your posts, that you could be writing more. Elaborate. Expand. See what happens when you let it open up.

    Your writing is so talented, I want to see where it can go when you let it off the leash. Go nuts. Go deep. Have fun.

    You're story is too good and your writing is too good - to not go further with it.



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