Short Stories

My Future

In my future, I'd like to be a business owner.  I just don't know what type of business yet.  I'd like to live in a big city like Boston or New York, but a place I haven't lived yet.  I wouldn't be opposed to living anywhere around the world in a big city.  My ideal financial situation would be making enough money to take care of my family comfortably and letting them live, as well as myself, a life of luxury.  This is how I grew up and I don't want anything less for myself when I grow up.  I would want a family of 4 or 5 (myself, my wife, and two or three kids).

Change of Fate

A change of fate that could happen could be me finding myself in a tight financial predicament.  My business is struggling and I find myself facing family struggles because I feel stress that I am not doing well in my job.  I then come across a friend from high school that has a business TV show and would like me to come on the air.

Alternative Future

I have my own television show talking about business.  I'm making more money than owning a business.  I interview some of the most famous business men such as Donald Trump and others.  I travel all over the world and have a way different social life because of my different job.


Grace

Life can be hard,
Life can get tough.
I can over-complicate things,
And make life unmanageable for myself.
When I rely on my friends,
My family,
And my spirit,
I can deal with life on life's terms,
With dignity and grace.
The universe is looking out for me,
If I look out for myself.
Doing what I need to do,
With grace and power,
Opens me up to the universes rewards.

Affirming the Future

All of these images are of significant importance to me.  The images include travel, healthy living, and spirituality.  These are all staples of my living and things that I would like to make more important in my life.  For instance, I struggle with healthy living, so my intention with making this visual board too is that it focuses healthy living in my life more.  I had a hard time due to image formatting to make the board look more artsy.

Poem:

I see myself with much success,

Many experiences,

Many friends,

Flowing in and out of my life.

I see myself shaped by the experiences I have had,

Recollecting on my past.

Passion

Passion at its finest

I am passionate about many things.  I believe everything I take up as an interest and a hobby I am passionate about.  I find that taking up my interests and hobbies with passion is the best way to go about partaking in these things.  Something I am really passionate about is basketball.  More than playing the sport though, I am interested in the game itself, the statistics, the numbers, and just the sport as a whole.

I have often thought about taking my passion for basketball and making it into a career.  I could certainly look into getting into sports management and working in the front office for a team.  I could also be a scout that finds talent at either the college or professional level.

The population I would be serving would be obviously either those looking to get recruited into colleges or onto a professional basketball team.  The passion for my work would serve the team that I would be working for.  Because of my passion for the game and for the work I would be doing, I'd spend a lot of time and effort doing the best job I could, and this would be a huge asset to whoever I would serve.

Wes Unseld playing in Washington, D.C. during the 1968-1969 season.  One of my favorite players

Following the lead of my passion,
Could take me to endless heights.
Without passion in life,
I don't have much worthwhile.
Taking what I love,
And making it an important part of my life,
is important to me.
Doing what I love,
Dancing with my passion,
Is something I must do,
To maintain peace,
As well as happiness.
Staying true to what I love,
And following my dreams,
Is something I will always do.

Alchemist

 Paulo Coehlo's The Alchemist is an awesome book.  In essense, the book is about a young boy named Santiago that goes on a quest for treasure that he had dreamed about.  His journey was shaped by the people he met and the things he learned along the way.  By the time Santiago had reached the treasure, he was a changed man, with a different outlook on life and the world around him.  He learned a lot about alchemy, he learned about different walks of life, and he also learned a little about love.  All of the experiences he had re-shaped his entire life.

The part of the book that really hit me was when Santiago met Fatima at the well in the oasis, on his way to the Pyramids.  This probably has to be that I'm a sucker for a good love story, so I found myself paying extra attention.  In addition, there were some ideas that were introduced when Santiago and Fatima spent time together that were introduced for the first time in the book.  The ideas of love without ownership and true love were something introduced at this time.  These were ideas that really made me focus in on the reading.

Overall, I really like the book.  It's many themes and and symbolism kept me interested throughout the reading.  The character development of Santiago throughout the book is awesome too.  Watching him transform and learn was inspiring.  He is an admirable character from the get-go, and watching him grow was awesome.

I'd recommend this book to anyone that wishes to have a good read.  I think it's a good read for anyone, because it is easy to follow along and can keep a reader interested.

An interesting book indeed,

Containing a lot of symbolism.

Lessons can be learned,

As long as you pay close attention.

Santiago was an admirable character.

He showed desirable personality traits.

He showed willingness,

He showed strength.

He showed courage,

He showed love.

His openness to life and all of its lessons,

Is an example for all of us.

He persevered when times were rough,

He showed faith during times of tribulation.

He was open to getting more in touch with himself,

And getting more in touch with his spirit.

He let the people around him mold him, 

And make him into a better man.

He triumphed at the end,

Finding his treasure,

And discovered that God had a funny sense of humor.

Gratitude

"We can only be said to be alive in those moments when our hearts are conscious of our treasures." - Thornton Wilder

Gratitude is something I did not get a handle on until very recently in my life.  It was something for the longest time I was not able to feel.  It wasn't until I was stripped of everything that I placed meaning on in my life and then slowly started getting those things back that I became grateful for them.  It is something to even have a good handle on today, because when I get so consumed by everything that is going on around me, I often forget what is important and to be grateful that I have it.

I tend to take for granted the friendships and relationships that I have.  Because they are such a constant in my life, I often forget to honor them, and act selfishly and inconsiderately of their feelings and struggles.  It is important for me to remember what type of person I am capable of being - selfish, inconsiderate and dishonest, leading me to not have the relationships I have today.  I have the relationships and friends today because of the way I carry myself in day to day life.  I honor myself, honor others, and act selflessly.

I am really grateful for the people in my life.  Notably my friends and family.  They are always there for me through my ups and downs.  I feel like I can be honest with them and open up to them so that I can properly be helped.  I couldn't imagine a life without people in my life that could help carry me through hardships.

I believe there is a lot I could soak in from life.  Something I can better soak up is the attributes of others around me.  I often see others doing great things and doing things that are helpful for them and help them achieve in life that I lack in my own life.  For example, a trait I admire in my father is his organization, diligence, and overall responsibility he has regarding getting things done like paying bills, doing his laundry, etc.  These are things that I struggle with on my own.  I often keep to myself and try and figure these things out on my own instead of trying to get help and copying what my father does to fix my issues with this.

Haiku 1:

Having my dog is,

a simple joy in my life.

Continual peace.

Haiku 2:

Living on my own,

My first time in solitude,

Peace and silence.

Haiku 3:

Unfortunately,

This world is run by money,

Something I lack.

Haiku 4:

A bed to sleep on,

Much food in my stomach,

Taken care of.

Haiku 5:

Not much to ask for,

Not much to complain about,

I am looked after.

Fears, Assets, Obstacles

I have many fears, assets, and obstacles within myself.  In this post, I will mainly expand upon and discuss my fears in detail, because it is my fears that are my obstacles, and the fears are what gets in the way of ultimate success, freedom and happiness within myself.  Before I start though, I would like to say that I do acknowledge my assets.  I am an honest, mature, selfless, empathetic person, and I play my strengths to help me and help others in day to day life.  With that said, I will discuss my fears.

One fear of mine, that really gets in the way of my success is financial fear.  I am always insecure about my financial well-being.  This dives way deeper than the fact that I am always broke.  Because I do not know what I want to do as far as work after I graduate school, this plays into my financial fears.  If I don't have a occupation, how am I going to be comfortable as a self-supporting adult?  How am I going to provide for a family?

How I work with this fear is simple but not easy.  I stay active in the solution:  I continue to look for work, and I go to school, and eventually I'll figure out what I want to do for work when I grow up.  Also, I stay faithful to the God of my understanding that I will continue to be taken care of like I have been all these years.

Fear, it takes away my cheer,
It sits in the driving seat, insisting it will steer.
It's hard not falling victim to fear,
I have a sense for when it is near.
It pops up everywhere, touches everything,
And all it does is leave you with a nasty sting.
Fear was my slave master for my years,
Making me feel sadness and shed tears.
Faith is the only thing that can conquer fear,
The only thing that will make you clear.
Living by faith will set you free,
From the fear that prohibits you from glee.
Fear lives in your head and preys on you when you're weak,
Fear is the reason you sometimes feel so meek.
So don't live in fear, live in faith,
And then all your dreams, you can freely chase.

Free Write

This has been a pretty good week for me.  I have felt happy and healthy all week.  I have maintained my spiritual well-being and just feel well.  I have been productive, getting things done that have needed to get done since I have moved to Cambridge from Tucson.

In the present moment, I am focusing on school.  It wasn't until recently I realized that school and my education was the key to my future success.  I didn't care about my future success and happiness until very recently in my life.  This has been the main focus of my life.

I also am really working on showing up and being a good person in all of the relationships that I am in. Whether it is with my girlfriend, my best friend, or with my parents, I just want to be the best person in that relationship that I possibly can be.  I believe strongly that all we have are relationships.  Relationships and connecting with others are what keeps me happy and whole.

When I stop, I notice...

When I stop, I notice the clutter around my room.

I notice the unfinished paint job on my bedroom walls.

I notice posters of my past heroes, from Lebron James to Bob Marley.

I see trophies of past achievements.

As I lay in my bed, I notice my dog right next to me,

Waiting loyally by my side until I finish doing what I am doing.

I hear him breathing peacefully,

And at the same time,

I hear the rustling of the leaves outside as cars pass.

I also hear gusts of wind right outside my window.

As I look around,

Old memories come up for me.

Childhood and teenage memories,

For I am in the room I slept in when I was little.

I think back to the many nights of I did the same thing I am doing right now,

Deep, deep thought,

Listening to music,

Laughing with friends.

I am at peace in the present moment,

Something I am grateful for.